things that influenced my year

1. Finding out that Nanay (my beloved grandmother who I share a room with) had bone cancer and tuberculosis.

- It was hard. I didn't know where to place myself. Should I have tried to distance myself because I couldn't bear the pain of watching her in pain? Or should I have made the most out of the time left with her? The emotional attachment I have with her is strong. I love her. It was heartbreaking.



2. My blurty, my LJ and my blog - from just becoming a fad, to merely updating O and other friends about my life, writing in my blurty during late lonely and depressing saturday nights at home at the attic, trying to run away from seeing my lola in pain...it made all of it more bearable and less lonesome.



3. My theo and philo classes - although i have to admit i got really low scores for both...it was a bit insightful and it fueled my mind to be rational and patient despite trying times.



4. DDI practicum with RD - a peek into Human Resources Consulting. ;) Meeting nice and inspiring people made me see what I could be and what I wanted to be in the future + the fact that I became a lot closer to RD because of our everyday lunches, surfing escapades and OCness on the library which was therapeutic.



5. the TNT core '04 and pre-ORSEM, ORSEM itself - it was a learning experience again. many memories...many friendships and realizations. It's not about the prestige that you do your job or you take a position. like what i read somewhere...the position does not make a leader, the leader makes the position. humbling experience



6. being part of the PSYCHE EB and becoming the HR head - many issues within myself that stemmed from this decision. there came a point I really wanted to quit...but as always..martyr ako eh..i stuck to it...but seriously...I don't have any regrets =) despite the frustrations. it's not in the immediate results...it's in the process. I love my HR peeps also =) mikey and his blockmates. grateful for them.



7. finding out about something I was totally clueless about..when it was right under my nose. ang manhid ko! both good and bad - made me feel awkward again..but this time I think I've become a bit more mature in handling awkward stuff...I'm glad we're still friends. I'm touched with the way he feels



8. having a shaky relationship with 'Chinky' and our talks at Gesu and the e-mails and letters...I think he's the first person, I admittedly told everybody I liked (haha ang neneng ko talaga...) and he's the first person who liked me that I ended up liking more than I expected..but in the end it didn't work out. I got hurt but I don't want to dwell on it. I need closure...but I'm grateful for the fun memories we've had. I'll always cherish those...



9. stuff that happened in the family after my lola passed away - my two sisters were bothered. an encounter with paranormal stuff. i don't want to talk about this...but it made me closer to my faith.and other family issues...i'm glad it made us closer...



10. sincere, deep and insightful conversations with people...i love when this happens. i love meeting new friends...new STrainers =)